What a weekend!

We had quite the weekend!! Started off that there were zero campsites left at the lake and there is usually at least non-electrical but there wasn't. So we didn't end up taking our camper and bumper with my folks in there camper. We had beautiful weather on Saturday and Sunday (my folks left on Sunday so it was just hubby and I left)!! Monday they were calling for thunderstorms so we went fishing first thing but the clouds came up from no where so we went and took the boat out right away (9:30am), we tarped the boat up, parked the campsite and put the stove under the awning and the thunder was roaring and rain started to trickle. That let up and we were back outside just hanging out and cooking lunch. 2:30pm another thunder storm rolls in, this time a little worse and then they post "tornado warnings". So we packed up all the chairs, put the awning in, we were ready for a good wind....nothing came. It was beautiful out so we went and hauled fire wood, made a fire, cooked supper, sat around the fire for quite awhile, had the awning out again to let it dry. Went to bed around 10pm and it was still really nice out. Sleeping already... the wind picked up at 11pm and I put the awning in. Sleeping again... 11:40 pm we got a loud knock on the door saying there is a tornado coming across the lake. We panicked...I grabbed the camera and hubby grabbed a cell phone and we jumped in the truck and started driving... not sure where or what our plan was...Finally we came to our senses and we went to the cement shower house (no one there), just running 20 feet into the shower house we were completely soaked head to toe as the sky was literally falling!! Called my folks at home and asked them to check the radar online they said there was a nasty system coming through there but it should end soon...we heard voices and figured there was people in the ladies shower house so ran over there. It was a lady and 4 teenagers (they were there for swimming lessons). We were wondering why there was no one else in the shower houses for cover but she said most people left the campsites and went to cabins of friends because they were all locals just camping down there for the swimming lessons. So we hung out there for 1 hour and my folks called and said the severe system had moved through. We went back to the camper and hardly slept a wink from the sheer fear of another tornado brewing... finally when the sun started to shine we fell asleep.
Then it was time to get up and get ready to head to the city for some shopping and my u/s.
I had no desire to eat but thought I should so I had some grapes... we were an hour down the road and nausousness kicked in... gotta started and puke on the side of the road (the joys). Then I was good to go again and enjoyed the scenes of a whole new country scene I had never saw before.
Did some Costco shopping, shopping at the mall a bit, went for our amazing u/s and then shopping again and hit the road home. I was just started to fall asleep and hubby woke me and he was too tired to drive so we switched and then I was WIDE awake thank goodness and drove for most of the way home.
It was so nice to unpack and be home for the sake of being home/safe & sound!!

Finding out!?

So I really think I want to find out what this little bean (it's a lime as of right now) is going to be before it comes out. I have had enough surprises with infertility that I just want the sense of being prepared for a girl or boy and have less of the neutral colors.

Before all of this my husband was completely against finding out but now he doesn't really know what to think... so it has to be both of us finding out or neither.

Right now there is soooo many pregnant people due from November-February and probably more to annouce that I am nervous that my names will get chosen. So if we do find out is it already if we name the unborn baby and let it be known to everyone??? Or is that completely dumb and wrong??? I have never felt I need to be traditional in any of those ways so I am leaning towards it being ok!! Do I care what everyone else thinks?? Well I sort of do but I can justify it!

All opinions are welcome! Don't be afraid to comment!

It's been awhile...

Sorry for the lack of posts!! I have been trying to keep busy and that I have been doing....

We did a 5 day camping trip over the long weekend (July 1st) with D's family and what a gorgeous weekend it was! I finally got some color, ate great food, slept fairly good and didn't get sick once!!! Woohoo. Got home on the Monday after telling my mom how good I was feeling and I jinxed myself and was barfing again!! So I have come to learn that to the few people who know and ask how I am feeling "Don't say good".

Yesterday (July 14th) was a rough day but I dealt with it. My husband got a random text message from an unknown person asking "Is it true that you are expecting?", he replied back with "who is this and where did you hear that from?". Then we figured out it was one of his hockey player friends and his wife heard it from another chick (her- see below).

This is the exact thing that went down on BBM:

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Me: Are u telling people don and I are expecting when that might not even be true?

Me: I am not trying to be rude but if we were don't you think we would tell when we were ready and if we aren't that would be pretty sad to hear being how long we have wanted a baby.

Her: I'm not tell people that u are pregnant but u have to realize that people talk and that people do know that u went for IVF so they put two and two together. I truly am sorry that if someone told u that I out right said that u were pregnant that's not the case cause I don't know for sure.

Me: So does everyone think we did ivf because that's what you and zinger thought and just told people? We haven't been open about how far we are willing to try for a baby so for people to KNOW we did ivf wouldn't be correct. It would just be an assumption. I have my guard up right now about all of this so I am sorry for being this way but I just want to get everything straight.

Her: Well we heard u got IVF from someone else. We didn't make that up our selves.

Me: Ok I believe that but it doesn't make it true. I wish ivf was 100% so everyone can have babies, I wish we could be pregnant and announce without people thinking that, I wish no one had to deal with the pain of infertility, I wish you guys weren't dealing with this shit, I wish people didn't lose babies, gossip.....ok I could keep going but the fact is that people gossip hurts. And the fact that don got a random text asking if it was true if we were pregnant because you told there wife hurts. I hope one day we both have the oppurtunity to announce without anyone speculating on how it worked and to just be happy for us. I am done my rant... it might be pregnancy hormones or pms or just bitchy me. Sorry you got the brunt of it but most of what I have been hearing is coming from you guys so I just wanted to address the situation and forget about it. So I wish you guys the best in your journey of trying for number two and in the mean time enjoy the little miracle you have already because any child is a true miracle.

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We have had issues with this couple before talking about us and I completely avoid them at all costs but it's tough during hockey season at the hockey games. She has a child already and the poor little girl gets no attention from her parents. The last thing was they took her to a wedding and showed her off for the first 30 minutes and after that they didn't have a clue where she was. Finally a few hours later someone find her sleeping on two chairs pulled together and lets the parents know (WTF!!?). They are now have problems having a second child... and from someone who has gone through infertility I am seriously not feeling bad for them. I feel like they should charish the child they have now first and then maybe they could conceive. They had an IUI done and she thought for sure the first time was going to work because she was pregnant before!! WTF are you an idiot? Do you not read about any of this?
She thought because we did IVF that putting two and two together that I am automatically pregnant!? GOD ARE YOU DUMB! And then there is people who go and read stacks of books, millions of internet sites about there infertility issues and might even know more than the doctors who still can't get pregnant... SO SAD!!

Ok I am done the rant! And I totally feel better! My hubby normally doesn't like when I spout off like that but he had no problem whatsoever with my Bbm conversation with her, YAY! Then we went for a long bike ride together and I felt 100% again.

Getting Sick...

Well it has officially started.... I am getting the day sickness. I thought for sure I was going to make it to 8 weeks and be in the clear but nope!!

All of the way up until now I have felt uneasy so I just knew I had to keep eating small portions more spread out the day. And that I could deal with.
TMI ahead..... As of last night after eating a very unhealthy meal... I almost didn't make it home and into the bathroom fast enough. Supper went down the toilet and I felt perfectly fine afterwards so I was ok with that! But 1 hr later I felt like absolute poo and just layed on the couch for the rest of the night until I drug my ass to bed.
This morning I dry heaved the whole time I was getting ready... I gagged put my pills up my woo-woo, I almost had something come up while brushing my teeth, my concealer didn't look right so I gagged over that. All morning I have felt like absolute shit but forced myself to eat here and there... right before lunch I took a poop and the smell almost made me turn around and puke... instead I just sat there and gagged, wiped, flushed, washed and was outta there so fast!!! YUCK I hope this doesn't get any worse, I feel sorry for those who have it for there entire pregnacy!

Even though I am complaining I absolutely would take this over no baby any day!!

7 Week u/s

2 days before the ultra-sound I started to spot brown and had some slight discomfort down there so I thought for sure this was the end of it all.

Well Friday was the big day... I was nervous as hell!! I told the doctor before we went in that I was spotting and he was nervous for me too. We didn't talk much and just wanted to get straight to it and figure out if there was a healthy baby in there. He got in there and went straight to the uterus to find that baby... he smiled and pointed to me with his mouse pointer (I had my own screen to look at) and said this is your little been and it's healthy! I was so in shock with so much relief... a 500 pounds man was lifted off my shoulders! I saw the little flicker of the heart beat at 174bpm. He then looked at my ovaries and they are the pain I have been having... full of cysts from the IVF (which is normal especially when at risk for OHSS). So he said I definately had OHSS just on the lower end of the scale though.

I think that's about all I learnt... oh wait... he did say "This should be your last internal u/s ever!!" WOOHOO! I got so used to the damn things that it didn't really dawn on me but now that he said that "What a milestone". What a dumb thing to be excited for but little things excite me!! :)

I went for bloodwork and if all is good I don't need to see anyone until my 12 week nuchal u/s.

Time is Slowly Moving!!

Well I haven't posted in awhile because I haven't had much to say!!
I have still been having problems with bloat and have kept a light jacket on or something baggy over my belly because it totally looks like I have quite the ponch going on.... hoping it will go away and then come back when it actually is baby!
I am on the countdown for my u/s / OBGYN app... 10 days and counting. I think once I see the heart-beat I will feel much better!
As for symptoms... I don't know if I am making them up because I know they are possible or if they really are symptoms. Other than the obvious bloat, I think my boobs are growing and are randomly sore (thank goodness because I have small little boobies and have always wanted some..lol), and watching my work cat sleep on the printer is making me VERY tired so I am not sure if that's normal Wednesday symptom or preggo.

I think after my June 10th app if all goes well I will be switching my blog to more focus Hopeful4 a healthy baby... so if you are a fellow IF follower and feel like you can't follow... I totally don't blame you!!

The Results are in....

So I have kept delaying blogging about this because I know some readers also are having problems conceiving and I feel bad typing this out (so quit here if you can't read anymore).
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Sunday morning was test day and my birthday.... so either it was going to be a good one or a bad one. I was up 2-3 times to pee over night because I am still very bloated from the OHSS symptoms and it makes less room for my bladder (in my mind I look 4 months preggers already). Anyhoo 7:30am rolls around and I have been up for awhile already waiting for DH to wake up and low and behold he was waiting for me to wake up. So I asked if it was ok if I went and 'made pee' and off I went. I walked out of the bathroom and closed the door and hubby would say when it was time to go in and we both looked together (I had to tell him while we were waiting that 2 lines is good and 1 is bad). So we go in look at the stick and low and behold ~~~~TWO VERY NICE LOOKING LINES~~~~. So as of right now I am preggers and my estimated due date is January 27th. I haven't booked a doctor appointment yet because I haven't even decided where to go yet!? GP 15 minutes down the road or my most favorite doctor OBGYN 1.5hrs down the road who knows lots more about me. I think tomorrow I will call the OBGYN and see if he even wants me back and if not that will be my decision.... but do I really want to be driving that far for every appointment? I am going to have to drive that far for any u/s anyhow so I dunno!!!!!?
I do know lots could still happen... tubal, m/c... you name it and anything is possible but I am going to enjoy this as long as it lasts!

The rest of the day was really good!!! My sister and her two daughters and my mom all came down for a birthday visit and we went to the greenhouse to flower shop, then they took my out for a yummy lunch. In the afternoon I lounged around and did nothing. And for supper we went down to the lake for a wiener roast with a bunch of hubbies family! So all in all it was a really great birthday!

If you know me please keep this to yourself until I know I am in the clear (12 weeks or maybe even longer...).