Yesterday was a long day though even though only an hour of it was only the real annoying part. It was Easter at the Inlaws... excellent people and they know of our circumstances. Hubby's 2 sisters have 7 kids altogether (3 & 4) all under the age of 8 and I watched every one of them grow up from baby to now. This Easter was hard and I really didn't think any of this bothered me but it was all about the kids, the Easter bunny and egg hunt. I was not interested in any of it.... and I said no that's ok I don't want to go outside and freeze my ass off to watch kids scream, cry, run... so a few of us stayed inside and worked on a puzzle, ate some snacks, and chatted. Then after supper it was dishes time, me and the brother inlaws fiance got up to put stuff away even though we don't know our way around the kitchen that well but we managed to get them done EVERY HOLIDAY!!! You know what hubbies sisters do???? FUCK ALL or find something else to make them "look busy", the one said "It's nice to have the Step sisters do all the dishes", so hubby calls them both "Anastasia & Drizella" and us other two Cinderella's (thank hun!!). The one sister who had he first comment didn't like that so pouted and then got up and helped out! The other... sat there there... drank her coffee, played with her kid..... FUCK THAT!! So next Thanksgiving if this happens again I think I might flip out! There is excuses all the time~ or little comments that make me want to strangle them. Like "When you have kids we will do the dishes!"... ok your husbands are quite capable to watch the kids for the short time it takes to do dishes!
Then it was the egg dying... Mother Inlaw always wants to try something new with dying the eggs to see how it turns out so I am always the one who tries it out. I did the eggs all up, put it in the cups I chose and watch it like a hawk because this is the only egg I am doing to make her happy. I turned away for one second and BAMN a kid tries taking it out and crack! Ok kids will be kids and shit happens but me PMSy, no kids, I am starting to feel very annoyed. I say it's ok, stick around and watch and take a few pictures for the moms with them dying eggs with there kids and then I bolt back to the puzzle as soon as I was done taking pictures. I needed my alone time in a quiet spot....
~~~~OK THAT RANT IS OVER!!~~~~ Today is a good day!!
Today is Easter with my family!! Love them all! LOVE LOVE LOVE my sisters kids and I feel much closer with them than the 7 other kids. She has two of the cutest girls ever so I can't wait to see them. One just got her tonsils lasered out and might be down and out and the other little stinker is at the doctor as we speak with puss at the back of her throat, hopefully she gets some meds to get better. At the back of my head I keep thinking, please don't get sick, please don't get sick... that's the last thing that I want right now. But I am tonsil free so if it's tonsilis I am good to go and won't have any worries!!
It might be an awkward day today though... by no means is my family perfect!
- I have a brother I have seen or spoken to in over a year (pretty sure he didn't answer the phone so he isn't coming home as always)
- My dad is a walking time bomb in my mind and it makes my eyes water to just type that (he had a stroke and a heart attack) and is on meds and shouldn't be drinking anymore but still does after two scares (or warnings in life as I like to call them). Some people don't get warnings so he should consider himself very lucky and I do just to still have him around! But my mom always says that drinking is his "social" way of life and it would be like life would quit if he didn't... sometimes I think she is just covering for him and maybe he has a drinking problem??? My dad and I are really tight though... he likes to think he was the one who raised me and my mom had nothing to do with it (funny funny). My dad and I are very much alike! We hunt together, we are both tough emtionally, both speak out minds.... I could keep going.
- My mom is the rock in our family and keeps it together. She is amazing and supportive and full of advice.
- My sister who feels like a twin to me! We are 6 years apart but seem like the same person in most ways. She is more like mom in some ways as I am more like my dad. She wouldn't hurt a fly, as I hunt big game. She would someone talk shit about her, and I would say something directly to that person. But other than that... my goodness... we watch the same TV shows, listen to the same music, think EXACLY alike... I say something before she even can. We don't even have to ask eachother for opinions because we know what eachother would say but still do for some re-assurance!
- The brother inlaw (my sisters husband)... he is another story and that is why it might be awkward today!? I am not sure what to think of this all... but he hasn't always been there for my sister and he recently had an "incident" involving drinking and jumping out of a moving vehicle and smashing his face to the pavement (resulting in a broken/bruised face/and ego). I haven't seen him since this has happened and I think he is quite imbarrassed about it (or at least should be)but the upside is he getting help. So I am happy to report he is getting help but I just hope he can follow through with it all... I just hope he will always be there for my sister and her girls from now on because if he can't, it may break there family up :(
That's all a lot I had to say today but if you are reading this post now you know a little more about me, my family, and the struggles that everyone goes through even beyond infertility.
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