I wish I would have started this sooner....

Our Timeline

• March 2008 went off birth control - I think birth control was turning me into a crazy person after so many years so I thought it was time to go off and clean out my system good before we were ready to "Try".
• January 2009 Started TTC - I was still 'Duh' to the whole TTC process and thought it would take a maximim of 6 months.
• July 2009 had sharp pains on side and Doc sent me for an u/s. U/s showed cyst had just ruptured. - This didn't feel pretty, I remembered I was going with my friend to try on bridesmaid dresses and damn it hurt and I was keeling over (I knew it wasn't my appendix because it was on the left side). Dr. M sent me for an u/s and they only wanted me to go in 2 months but my mom (in healthcare) put her foot down and got me in within the next few days!! Thanks Mom!! The u/s tech wasn't supposed to tell me anything but I looked it up on Dr. Google enough to know what I was talking about and to ask questions and he told me the answers (thanks Mr. Techie).
• August 2009 Starting to wonder so got OPKs - Got the expensive ovulation preditor kit with the 7 sticks and I was determined to get the timing down perfectly so the cysts wouldn't come back. Joke was on me I guess.
• January 2010 went to family Dr. and DH went for a s/a and I did Day 21 bloodwork. Got a call back and my bloodwork shows I am ovulating. DH's morphology is so so. - Just started to get the ball rolling here medically.
• February 2010 get 2nd s/a to compare results after DH started vitamins and took antibiotics to make sure there is no infection. Call back and refered to a Urologist just to check things out. Meanwhile I get on a waitlist to see an OBGYN at my request to get more checked out on my end. - I really don't think we waited long enough to get the 2nd s/a done but whatever.
• April 2010 DH goes to the Urologist and she thought all was fine but sent him for a scrotal u/s to just make sure there was no varicoles. - The doc called us back (thank goodness we didn't need to drive over 3 hrs back) and she said everything looked good and that IUI's should do the trick for us as long as everything looks good on my end. I went for my initial consult was the the OBGYN and he booked an u/s and bloodwork for Day 3 & 21. Numbers looked good, started to wonder then what the hell is wrong!?
• May 2010 I get an HSG done by the OBGYN... TUBES ARE CLEAR! YAY! - I remember having to go for a blood test first to make sure I wasn't pregnant, the lab techs were just opening the doors and they all kept ignoring me like I was just there for a chair to sit on. Finally a lady came and took me in and one.....poke it was done. I went and stood in line at the xray lab and I got in right away and the people waiting gave me a good glare. I went in my little closet of a room, stripped down to my skivvies (all but the socks of course!). Waited....waited... watied... finally a nurse came and told me we were still waiting on the blood test results (by now the Advil they told me to take prior to have this done was not gunna do its thing anymore). But finally I got called in (hoping MAYBE...just maybe there was a chance that the blood test was going to come back postive. NOPE! Story of my life BFN! Hopped up on the cold metal xray table, waited for the doc and got right at it. It was a relief to get that out of the way and didn't hurt as bad as I thought it would. I remember him have to blow up the balloon twice and it pinched really hard but what's a 2 second pinch? The nurse told me it was all done and that I could go and change. TMI coming up.... I stood up and he left a god damn straw for drain in me and I looked under my hospital cape thing and yup... I told the nurse and she was imbarrassed for the doc and was like "Oh I am so sorry", as I am leaking dye onto the floor threw this damn straw. Pulled out the straw and bolted back to my closet to put my clothes on and get the hell outta there!
• Somewhere in here I went back to the doctor and he told me my tubes were open and my u/s was good so the next step should be IUI's and I had to see the other doctor for that (THE MOST AWESOME DOCTOR IN THE WORLD DOCTOR!!).
• July 2010 Sign Consent forms for IUI's. Also get put onto the Saskatoon FC waitlist. We were camping this day and it was gloomy and we got a call from the clinic that does IUI's (my fav doc and also an OBGYN). It was only a 30 minute drive and I wanted to hit up Walmart so we drove into the city and read and signed our consent forms and I was just told to call in my Day 1. Then I went to Walmart and got my groceries and back a camping we went!! :)
• End of July called in a Day 1 and the Doc wasn't going to be around when I needed the IUI. Actually I was quite fine just a little disappointed but I thought... it's all good it will happen next month.
• August 2010 Called in another Day 1 "We're sorry he is gone to Toronto for a conference". Starting to get a little annoyed about this and the hubby can tell.
• September 2010 Call in Day 1 and we get to do our first IUI with 50mg of clomid. I had two really good follicles so doc warns it could be twins. Ending with a negative. Didn't even think for a second this wasn't going to work! In the 2ww I was looking up strollers for twins and everything!! So when my period came... OUCH that hit hard!
• October 13, 2010 (our anniversary) took 50mg of clomid and IUI cancelled due to early ovulation. Also get put onto Edmonton and Calgary FC waitlists. Hubby came along with me to this appointment just for an u/s to check on when our IUI date would be. Doc told me we missed the surge and IUI is not happening this month. But were told to still try on our own (Pfff... Riiiiiight). So I went out to he vehicle to tell DH (where he was waiting for me), my eyes were blood shot... one look at him and my eyes poured out tears. Trying to talk but sobbing... I told him my body is dumb and I already ovulated on CD8 or 9. We still went out for an anniversary supper and after a few days I got over it.
• November 2010 IUI cancelled due to a cyst. Upside got a call from Calgary FC and we can do the IVF info session next month and initial testing. Another freaking cancellation due to my dumb body!! Felt like it was my fault this wasn't happening and I felt like I let down hubby but he re-assured me that I didn't.
• December 2010 3rd attempt at IUI #2 was a go with 50mg of clomid. Ended in a BFN! Thought maybe we would have a Christmas present to ourselves but nope. Went for IVF info session, s/a, u/s, and consult. Signed the papers for IVF and are on the waitlist. The info session was on Thursday night in Calgary and we stayed in a hotel that night (what a waste of a hotel room when you can have hotel room sex). DH had his s/a first thing in the morning then we had to putz around for 3-4 hours waiting for our nex appointment. Finally I had my u/s, got in pretty much right away. The girl u/s tech took me in checked me over. I talked with her as she did it. Asked if she thought I had a heart shaped uterus because at one point one tech told me I did but it wasn't bad. She looked and looked and didn't think so. I was good to go and went back and put my pants on and I was told to wait to take my report directly to the doc (my next app). She came back and said sorry do you mind coming back in here I just want another persons opinion on your uterus, "ok lets get this all figured out while I am here!". Went back in and they both looked and talked and it was nothing (WOOHOO). Then we were almost late for our next appointment with the FC doc. We got in right away, talked to the nurse, talked to the doc and he said DH's s/a was excellent, my u/s was beautiful and he wasn't really sure why this wasn't working. So we agreed that IVF would be the next step so we signed out lifes away! They asked us to speak the the counsellor there, she was very nice, we discussed a few things and out we were within 5 minutes of talking to her and on the road. 5.5 hours later we are home! HOME SWEET HOME!
• February 2011 3rd IUI with 50mg clomid everything looks the best it ever has to the doc. BFN This was do or die! Last try with IUI's and if it didn't work we knew IVF was the next step. Had high high hopes that this would work (third time is supposed to be the charm isn't it??). It was hard to swallow that we would be doing IVF.... alot of crying and sleeping.
• Early March 2011 get offered IVF but had to decline because the doc wanted 2 cycles off of any fertility drugs :(  The IVF nurse called me and told me the calendar, when I would be in Calgary, when I had to go and get bloodtests. And asked if I had any questions. Umm yup...I told her I just did an IUI last cycle with my OBGYN and just making sure nothing there would hinder this. She said being it was only 50mg of clomid that it shouldn't be a problem but that the clinic likes to have you off any meds for 2 months prior to IVF. She called me back and said she had bad news... I held my tears in until after I got off the phone with her. Son of a B&^*#... deep breathes. Thought it had to be next month then and we should be at the top of the list.
• End March 2011 got offered IVF and was given the calendar. This time it was a go and I was so excited!! I finally told my boss of everything that was going on and he was surprised but very supportive. We hired a part time lady on as I was CRAZY busy at work and that way she would be able to cover while I have to stay in Calgary for the 2 weeks. She's such a quick learner and very flexible so I am happy!
• Somewhere in here I got my package from the Pharmacy in the mail. WOW OVERWHELMING!! I had to take a couple deep breathes again and read through everything 3 times until I understood it all. For some reason I thought I would just be doing pen injections and not have to make my own needles (mix water with power in the syringes). Oh boy this could be interesting... will wait to look at that again until the time comes!
• April 10th 2011 Started Sniffing Suprefact to shut down ovaries. It's really not as bad as I thought! I can taste it at the back of my throat sometimes but I know it could be worse!
• April 25 2011Baseline u/s. This I am nervous about because I might get called and told I have a cyst and they are cancelling me once again (story of my life) or it's the call and that I start injections that night. TIME CAN'T GO FAST ENOUGH!!