You would think I would be patient by now, after going through this for almost 2.5 years...but NOPE! It seems like everything with infertility is a wait: a wait to get in to see a doctor, a wait for certain day blood tests, ovulation, temperature rises, more doctor waits, waiting for your period, waiting until you were at least close to pee on a stick....ok I could keep going!!!
I am so very impatient and if this worked I can't wait to be excited and if this didn't work I can't wait to move on and get on the list for our frozen blast transfer or to know if I should start to look into adoption or what....
I have been keeping busy so I thought that would help but NOPE. So while baking buns I thought...maybe I am baking a bun in my oven. Lol Or while at a Dinner Theater I see a baby and thought how lucky they were to have that baby so easily....I know people take getting pregnant so quickly for granted. My sister inlaw has 4 kids and she doesn't even know where the sperm meets egg....it took us long to get pregnant with child #3, oh really how long? 3 months! Grrr....
Positive thoughts...have positive outcomes?! I have always hoped so but have gotten hurt in the end so plan for the worst and hope for the best?! I dunno that one doesnt seem right either...so right now I am going to just be hopeful and if this doesn't work then I will deal with that when the time comes!
As far as I know this is the closest I have been to being pregnant so I am trying to take at least this much in!!!
Chow for now!
Your post made me laugh! lol.
ReplyDeleteYou're so right. All of this is just a waiting game - and it sucks and we never get any better at it!
Good luck girl!